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mancalledtrue) wrote2012-10-12 07:08 pm
mancalledtrue) wrote2012-10-12 07:08 pm
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Things I Fear: Twelfth
We were one day short of having a Friday the 13th this October. Dang.
#12: AGONY
I enjoy a small amount of pain. Pain I can control is all right by me. Perhaps this is too much information, but that's why I put these paragraphs behind LJ cuts. I don't cut myself, I don't engage in ritualistic self-harm - but I don't mind a little pain.
But one of the thoughts that creeps into my head from time to time, usually when I'm suffering from a really bad toothache, is the thought of being trapped in a situation where I'm in mind-numbing, inescapable pain. And never being able to escape.
Take the Aron Ralston story, the hiker who went off alone and without telling anyone and caught his hand under a boulder. I would die. I would not be able to make that sacrifice - I wouldn't live long enough to make it. The sheer torment would kill me long before I had to make that choice.
#12: AGONY
I enjoy a small amount of pain. Pain I can control is all right by me. Perhaps this is too much information, but that's why I put these paragraphs behind LJ cuts. I don't cut myself, I don't engage in ritualistic self-harm - but I don't mind a little pain.
But one of the thoughts that creeps into my head from time to time, usually when I'm suffering from a really bad toothache, is the thought of being trapped in a situation where I'm in mind-numbing, inescapable pain. And never being able to escape.
Take the Aron Ralston story, the hiker who went off alone and without telling anyone and caught his hand under a boulder. I would die. I would not be able to make that sacrifice - I wouldn't live long enough to make it. The sheer torment would kill me long before I had to make that choice.